The Final Chime

Hi There,

Thanks for joining me today, I hope you are well

I would like to say thank you to everyone who helped make yesterday’s launch of Poems From A Mod: My Journey Through Trauma, Survival And Recovery a massive success.

I would also like to thank everyone for their help and support in getting me to this point in my recovery.

The first ‘Survivor Poem’ I write is called The Final Chime, I thought it would be fitting for it to be the first poem in my blog.

The Final Chime

I just want to stop this pain
It falls on me like endless rain
Why why why each day I cry
So much so my tears are dry

All I want is joy and gladness
I’ve lived too long in the shadows of sadness
All I feel inside is numb
Knowing that I will succumb

My pain just never goes away
I realise now it’s here to stay
No matter what I say, think or do
I’ll never be normal, unlike you

I’ve worn this suit of armour all my life
Hidden pain from family, friends and my wife
I know now I can’t go on
I pray each night I don’t last until dawn

No-one really understands
My life now is in my hands
I live each day an hour at a time
But I know soon I’ll hear the final chime.


Belief is everything.

7 thoughts on “The Final Chime

  1. I saw you speak at L.L. @ The Alona today and along with the rest of the invitees, I was completely inspired by your work. I will definitely be recommending your recovery journey in both a professional and personal capacity. Equally, please feel free to enjoy my blog in the hope you can take something from it. Wishing you all the best. Barbara

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    1. Hi Barbara, thank you very much for contacting me. I hope you enjoyed the blog and the poems. I’m glad that my work has inspired me, it means so much to me if I’ve done that for you. Please recommend my journey in both those ways and if there is anything I can do to help in either capacity please feel free to contact me via the blog or email at twitter @poemsfromamod or in Instagram: PoemsFromAMod. I’ll definately check out your blog. Cani just say thanks again for taking the time to message me. It means a lot to me. Contact me anytime. Thanks. Michael


      1. Hi Michael, thanks for getting back to me. The biggest appeal about your work for me was that you quash a lot of myths with it. Guys can speak up, they can write poetry and write it well and it doesn’t have to be flowery to convey a very powerful message. There are lots of people in our organisation that we peer support, and I know they’d get a lot from your work. I can see it was as cathartic to write as it was to read. Good luck with your writing, wishing you, your wife and wee laddie a happy, health and peaceful Christmas. All the best. Barbara


      2. Hi Barbara, you’re more than welcome. If there is anything I can do to help anyone please just contact me.
        Can I just say I read your recent posts in your blog and they are incredible! You show an inner strength as well as a vulnerability that I completely admire in you. I’m sure that you will have had many messages of support but can I take hope and support from your blog. I didn’t mention it yesterday but I too have suffered at the hands of miscarriage. A previous partner a long time and and I were expecting twins together when unfortunately they miscarried. So although I can’t imagine the pain you’ve been through I can relate to it from my own experiences. You are an amazing person as is Stephen. As I said please keep in contact and perhaps jointly we can help a lot of people. Have a wonderful Christmas with your family. You deserve all the happiness in the world.


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