One Way Street

Hey guys, thanks for stopping by today, I appreciate it.

It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything due to a family bereavement but it feels like the time is right to post my latest poem.

It’s called One Way Street, it’s written under the premise that our lives follow a one way street and that once you’re on that one way street there is no going back…only forward so we should make the most of all the connections that we make in life.

I hope you like it.

One Way Street

Life is a one way street
Connection made with people we meet
Things we do, things we say
Connections made every day

The randomness of life’s events
Connections made are on rent
Life’s events come and go
Connections that we reap and sow

Through the streets of life
Connections made with husbands and wives
Though the street won’t be straight
Connections are what it takes

Sometimes high and sometimes low
Connections that stay and some that go
Red lights and green
Connections felt and some seen

Roundabouts
Connections to shout about
Sometimes the road will be lit
Connections that just seem to fit

The road goes forward and not back
Connections so strong but still crack
We travel the road until the light shines red
Connections made that last a lifetime in your heart and in your head.

Thank You

PFAM

Belief is everything

Scent

Hey guys,

Thanks for stopping by today, I appreciate it. Its been a busy week this past week so i’ve not had a chance to put anything in my blog but yesterday I wrote this poem called ‘Scent’.

It’s about the smells that can take us back to a certain place and time, both good and bad, that are stored in our minds.

I hope that you like it.

Scent

Smells from the past are heavens scent
Take us to places where time we’ve spent
Going off in the brain like tiny explosions
Triggered by these smells and potions

Some we like and some we don’t
Times we’ll want to remember and times we won’t
They’re stored in our mind until the door opens
Or perhaps until a time we can cope in

Memories of childhood past
Memories of the years gone fast
Memories of the times we like
Memories of the times we were scared all night

So what is this aromatherapy
It’s for everyone, come and see
It mat be everyone’s cure
But worth a try that’s for sure

They bring us back to the present time
Whether it’s Ylang Ylang or Pine
To help us live in the moments sooth
And prepare us for our brand new groove

Thank You

PFAM

Belief is everything

Solutions

Hi there,

Thanks for stopping by this cold but beautiful winters day.

The poem I decided to post today is called ‘Solutions’, it’s about trying to cope with life when you have Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

The first line says ‘focus on the solutions not the problems, this can be incredibly difficult due to the nature of mental illness as by it’s very nature you are incapacitated to deal with anything other than the problems, but there is hope and without hope there is nothing.

I hope you like the poem and can relate to it.

Feel free to provide me with feedback or make contact.

Solutions

Focus on the solution and not the problem
It’s a great way to think if you can forget them
To not think of the many things gone wrong
But to think of how to fix them and carry on

To be strong and resilient
Takes a level of courage that’s brilliant
To be able to put the past to one side
And to fill yourself with happiness inside

To think of ways how to resolve
And to figure out how to problem solve
The mysteries of how, why and what
And to carry on and never stop

I’ve always seen myself as strong
But now i’ve been proven wrong
All i’ve ever done is just pretend
And eventually it caught up with me in the end

But I will focus on the solution
With the help of friends and institutions
And begin to lead a fulfilling existence
Without the problems causing resistance

Thank You

PFAM

Belief is everything

 

Numb

Hi there,

Thanks for stopping by my blog today, I appreciate it.

I wrote this poem called ‘Numb’ in the Spring of last year to describe exactly how i felt to everything going on around me. Spring is a wonderful time of year yet I could not see it.

I hope that you like this poem.

Numb

I numb all my feelings and emotions
So that I can seem as calm as the oceans
No highs or lows every day
Just getting through in any way

I try and hide the shame
From the many sins against my name
Too scared to love for fear of punishment
Too scared to be open for fear of judgement

Can I embrace the vulnerability?
I’m not sure that I have the ability
To be an open book
To allow everyone an inside look

Into my heart and soul
And see why I can’t be whole
But maybe I can defy
And I can begin and I can try

I believe in the need for connections
I’ve steered clear of them like an infection
But I know now the value
Of the connections with you, you, you, you and you.

Thank You

PFAM

Belief is everything

Dancer

Thank you for visiting my blog today, I really appreciate it. I hope that you are well today.

Dancer is my latest poem and it is about the mystery of life and trying to love life without regret.

I hope that you like it.

If you are interested in my poems you can download a chapbook for free that I wrote called Poems From A Mod: My Journey Through Trauma, Survival And Recovery. It is available to download here via this link: Poems From A Mod – My Journey Through Trauma, Survival and Recovery

Dancer

Standing on the point of her toes
Who knows where she will go
Will she pirouette onto success in her next step?
And live life without regret

Such beauty in her poise and balance
Emanating from her talent
For more than every day she carries on
Her talent will remain life long

Thank You

PFAM

Belief is everything

Keys

Hi there,

Thanks for stopping by my blog today, I really appreciate it.

Below is my latest short poem called ‘Keys’. It’s about all of us having the power to determine our own future by unlocking our lives destiny. I hope that you like it.

Keys

Keys to the lock of the door
They are the keys to living and more
What’s behind the door of life?
Is it as random as a roll of the dice?

Our life is not predetermined
We can control the life we are in
We can unlock our lives destiny
With our own lives keys

Thank You.

PFAM

Beief is everything

Monsters

Hi there,

Thanks for stopping by today, i appreciate it.

I wrote this poem recently called Monsters, I believe that everyone who has CPTSD/PTSD has monsters and we have to find different ways to deal with them.

Here’s my take on it.

Monsters

I lie awake it’s the middle of the night
I waken in such a fright
Terrified by my monsters
But not the type that live under the stairs

It’s not the vampires that scare me stiff
But the monsters I have to live with
I was given great advice at the weekend
Hold On Pain Ends (HOPE)

Thank you

Poems From A Mod

Belief is everything

Value

Hi there,

Thanks for stopping by my site today, I really appreciate it.

i wrote this poem called ‘Value’ to emphasise that however we feel about ourselves through our illness we should always believe that we have a value to ourselves and to others.

I hope you enjoy my poem.

Value

We’re all good enough
We just have to get rid of this stuff
It’s just the thoughts in our minds
That treat us so unkind

But we have a value
In everything we say, think or do
No everything we think is real
And shouldn’t reflect how we feel

Be strong
And keep on keeping on

Thank You

Poems From A Mod

Belief is everything

 

Mirror

Hi there,

Thanks for stopping by my blog today, I appreciate it.

Below is my latest poem called ‘Mirror’.

For a long time I couldn’t look in the mirror as I could see what was behind my eyes and I was tying desperately not to let anyone know of my CPTSD. I wrote this short poem in recollection of how i felt then.

I am not ashamed to talk of my CPTSD now.

Mirror

Hiding behind the mirror of my eyes
Hiding form the tears i’ve cried
Showing you the face i want you to see
Showing you who you think is me

But I know it’s just a facade
To hide my fears and why I’m so sad
So look in the mirror and see what you do
Because it isn’t me….it’s you

Thank You

Poems From A Mod

Belief is everything

NYE 2018

Hi there,

Thanks for stopping by today, I appreciate it.

I wrote the poem below this morning to commemorate New Years Eve 2018, I hope that you like it.

NYE 2018

It’s the middle of the night and I’m trapped in the mire
Surrounded by the flames of this never ending fire
Each flame scorches me as they rise higher and higher
I’m selling my soul to the highest buyer

No escape from my surroundings
These fears, these monsters…these unexplainable things
They’ve came back and sensed my exhaustion
And dressed in their finest deceiving costumes

I know they’re here to deceive
On this day called New Years Eve
It’s their final attack of 2018
A terrifying reminder of the year thats been

I choose not to look back at the past
But the triggers that are burning me are so vast
They bring me back to the times ruined by him and her
I’m burning in the flames without a fire extinguisher

But the time is always right to do what’s right
Even now as I write this in the middle of the night
I know where I’m going and which path to choose
My strength is in my belief that I will not lose

So I will rise now from their horrors and their screams
And start the battle afresh in 2019
It’s a battle that I will win
By giving it my all and my everything

I know my success is on the horizon
I will have it all and I will win
I believe in my success and my ability
And I’ll keep believing with everything I do and see

I wish everyone a successful New Year
To live in happiness and not in fear
To have a New Year full of smiles and love
And believe in yourself….we are all good enough

Thank you
PFAM

Belief is everything